words

some quotes from some things I've been reading lately - all outside of school work.

“Develop an interest in life as you see it; the people, things, literature, music - the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself.” - Henry Miller

"We do not undertake analysis of works because we want to copy them or because we suspect them. We investigate the methods by which another has created his work, in order to set ourselves in motion." - Paul Klee

"Thought is not what inhabits a certain conduct and gives it its meaning; rather, it is what allows one to step back from this way of acting or reacting, to present it to oneself as an object of thought and to question it's meaning, it's conditions, and its goals. Thought is freedom in relation to what one does, the motion by which one detaches oneself from it, establishes it as an object, and reflects upon it as a problem," - Michel Foucault

"If it had not been for this thing, I might have lived out my life talking at street corners to scorning men. I might have died, unmarked, unknown, a failure. Now we are not a failure. This is our career and our triumph. Never in our full life can we hope to do such work for tolerance, justice, for man's understanding of man, as now we do by accident. Our words - our lives - our pains - nothing! The taking of our lives - lives of a good shoemaker and a poor fish peddler - all! That last moment belong to us - that agony is our triumph." - Bartolomeo Vanzetti, comment to a reporter before his execution (1927)

Upcoming events to be mindful of

This is for a few specific people:
Wednesday, March 12 - Trap Them - awesome - check flickr page for pictures.
Thursday, March 13 - Recording (this went well - will send songs around soon)
Friday, March 14 - Chris Pownall's going away party
Thursday, March 20 - Recording in Chicago
Friday, March 21 - Recording in Chicago
Saturday, March 22 - Recording in Chicago / show @ TBA
Sunday, March 23 - Shedd with Sara. Dinner etc w/ Shayna
Monday, March 24 - Return to NYC
Saturday, March 29 - Chris T's Bday "party" / Joe's goin away party
Tuesday, April 1 - Converge
Friday, April 18 - Indianapolis --> Bloomington
Saturday, April 19 - you know.
Sunday, April 20 - 31
Monday, April 21 - Help Jarod set up senior Art show
Tuesday, April 22 - Return to NYC
Wednesday, April 23 - Finest Dearest NYC @ Trash Bar / my Bday party
Thursday, April 24 - Finest Dearest Boston @ Mass Art
Wednesday, April 25 - Finest Dearest Philly @ ATM house w/ Algernon Cadwallader - record release party!
Saturday, May 3 - Who Calls So Loud @ ABC No Rio - have to go in between classes.
Saturday, May 17 - philosophy class take a field trip for our last day, Psych final.
Monday, May 19 - Math final
Monday, June 16 - Trap Them @ Knitting Factory w/ Killing The Dream

List of shows

Things have been busy, those of you that get my emails, know that it's going to stay that way for quite some time - we're talking years.
Oh the places you'll go. so many of my friends got this book for graduation.
Here is a list of shows I played in the bands that actually toured. I kept pretty decent records for the most part, I think I missed a few here and there for each band.
I was also in some bands that played other shows, some never made it passed the practice stage, and some never even outside of the idea. Those include:

A Photograph to Remember You By (we played some shows, had a demo that only one person likes (maybe a few others) - to which I am still very thankful for).

xCongressoftheCrowx (we added a member and changed our name --> red heroine),

The Rebellions' New Idol (I don't think I ever played a show),

The Grapes of Wrath (played (at least) 2 shows, I played (at least) one of them that included me ramming myself through a wall, and the rest of the band destroying the house, literally),

Skullyard (we played a few shows. I "played" drums, they recorded the demo without me!)

Our Past Projects - practiced and recorded 2 songs. Jeremy would be upset if I didn't mention this band.

Arrows (practiced a few times, even recorded a practice, planned shows and a tour, but fell apart, moved to opposite coasts).
I am in the process of starting up again, and someone recently asked about some shows I've played. It's always fun looking back, it's a good way to see where you are, and where you might go.

Cataract Falls Shows:
7/20/96 ft wayne, IN; carolyn's house - independence fest #1 (chris and damian palyed two acoustic songs)
8/3/96 - ft wayne, IN; simmy' shouse - w/ torque, green albinos - first show
11/2/96- corruna, IN; a pole barn - w/ torque
12/7/96 - ft wayne, IN; stacey's house - w/ agna moraine's autobiography
12/31/96 - indianapolis, IN; sit-com - w/ texas is the reason and the promise ring
1/24/97 - ft wayne, IN; chris's house - Ramona and Beezus first cd release.
1/31/97 - anderson, IN; A-1 records -
2/15/97 - ft wayne, IN; the loft - w/ stream of concious
4/20/97 - ft wayne, IN; stacey's house - damian and stacey acoustic
4/21/97 - anderson, IN; A-1 records - w/ bordo kit
5/17/97 - ft wayne, IN; stacey's house - w/ thoughts of ionesco, and wallside. there is a cassette of the ionesco and wallside sets.
5/23/97 - indianapolis, IN; missing link records - w/ opium taylor
5/24/97 - bloomington, IN; 602 S mitchell st - w/ cartwheels on clouds, red devil/bluedevil...
5/25/97 - anderson, IN; A-1 records - w/ my life in rain, flatus, others...?
6/?/97 - muncie, IN; Stevie ray's house of wax - w/ lubricant unkown
6/?/97 - anderson, IN: the fire lodge - w/ j church
7/18/97 - denton, texas; fest at the argo - w/ managra, prisoners of... and others
7/19/97 - little rock, AR; riverfront park
7/22/97 - memphis, TN; the alternative restraunt - w/ houseflies
7/24/97 - cary, NC; bond park - w/ fall without fear, zegote, bound.
7/25/97 - winston-salem, NC; pablo's - w/ zegote ...
7/27/97 - bloomington, IN; Rockit's pizza - w/ mudfoot, el guapo (last show w/ stacey)
8/16/97 - ft wayne, IN; james' house - w/ james winans, torque. this was our first "last show" - stacey didn't show up until we were done playing.
these two shows were with james on bass:
??/98 - bloomington, IN; union st house - w/ cartwheels on clouds.
???/98 - akron, OH; ???
at some point in july we went out on a tour, jarod is now the bass player.
?/98 - lexington, KY; the 3 center? - wesley willis was at this show. !!!
?/98 - cary, NC; bond park - w/ reinforce
4/30/99 - muncie - student center -w/ javen,
5/16/99 - chicago, IL; the fireside w/ lazarus plot, rom, jumping bomb angel, dead letter auction
5/18/99 - minneapolis, MN; castle danger w/ the ending again, dead letter auction (video)
5/19/99 - rapid city, SD; old story book island park w/ mike ray, dead letter auction (video)
5/24/99 - sacramento, CA; the loft w/ smash your face, dead letter auction
5/26/99 - goleta, CA; the pickle patch w/ hail mary, dead letter auction
5/29/99 - san diego, CA; che cafe w/ hail mary, dead letter auction , jenny piccolo (video)
5/30/99 - albuquerque, NM; youth in transaction w/ fever hot, (i prefer) brand x, roman candle choir, dead letter auction (cataract falls last show).

Dead Letter Auction Shows

▼spaces indicate lineup changes▼

001. 11/21/98; ft wayne, IN; industrial joe's
002. 11/ 27/98; ft wayne, IN; 2805 maumee w/ all pain aside
003. 12/02/98; ft wayne, IN; 2805 maumee w/ shuttlecock, joshua, elisha's sorrow
004. 12/05/98; ft wayne, IN; industrial joe's w/ circa 33
005. /12/13/98; ft wayne, IN; outer limits w/the lop, the agnostics
006. 12/31/98; ft wayne, IN; 2805 maumee w/ ramona and beezus, elisha's sorrow, firesign, yesod
007. 01/03/99; ft wayne, IN; tah cum wah (skate park benefit) all that's noteworthy: signal 30 and elisha's sorrow
008. 01/09/99; ft wayne, IN; northside park pavillion w/ lucas alvarez.
009. 01/29/99; ft wayne, IN; sunset hall w/ elisha's sorrow, mob 9, reactor 4
010. 02/19/99; chicago, IL; university of chicago w/ elisha's sorrow, national acrobat, subsist,
011. 02/20/99; ft wayne, IN; the back door w/ elisha's sorrow, yesod, skavossas (this was a benefit for the skate park, that raised $605)

012. 03/06/99; ft wayne, IN; 2805 maumee ave w/ milemarker, elisha's sorrow. (our first show with nick)
013. 03/13/99; ft wayne, IN; 2805 maumee ave w/ ghoul, elisha's sorrow, national acrobat, dead season
014. 04/02/99; bloomington, IN; S. walnut w/ elisha's sorrow, chalkline, suicide note(our last show w/nick)

015. 04/16/99; ft wayne, IN; 2805 maumee w/ cataract falls, grapes of wrath, elisha's sorrow. (video)
016. 04/30/99; ft wayne, IN; 2805 maumme ave (last show there) w/ghoul, elisha's sorrow. (video)

017. 05/13/99; ft wayne, IN; the backdoor w/ ramona and beezus and cataract falls (video)
018. 05/16/99; chicago, IL; the fireside w/ lazarus plot, rom, jumping bomb angel, cataract falls
019. 05/18/99; minneapolis, MN; castle danger w/ the ending again, cataract falls, (video)
020. 05/19/99; rapid city, SD; old story book island park w/ mike ray, cataract falls (video)
021. 05/24/99; sacramento, CA; the loft w/ smash your face, cataract falls
022. 05/26/99; goleta, CA; the pickle patch w/ hail mary, cataract falls
023.05/29/99; san diego, CA; che cafe w/ hail mary, cataract falls, jenny piccolo (video)
024. 05/30/99; albuquerque, NM; youth in transaction w/ fever hot, (i prefer) brand x, roman candle choir, cataract falls.

025. jana's graduation party - ??? w/ghoul

026. ???99; back door; acacia, dead season, (1st show with c.p.)
027. 7/21/99; shaoff park; all pain aside, elliott, others.
028. 7/23/99; shoaff park; the locust, black cat #13, outhud, my lai, the S process
029. 8/5/99; battle creek, MI; house show; pillage people
030. 8/19/99; backdoor; ghoul, charm city suicides
031. 9/??/99; back door; free show;
032. 10/29/99; back door; small brown bike (last show with j.c.)

033. 11/26/99; backdoor; porphyria (1st show with travis)

034. 12/1/99; backdoor; *damian solo*, cross my heart, appleseed cast

035. 12/18/99; chicago; fireside bowl; (w/o jarod, josh instead), usurp synapse, kung fu rick

036. 2/5/00; northside park; ghoul, fat ass, anonymity

037. 3/18/00;

038. 4/14/00; back door; ac/dc benefit show

039. 4/20/00; back door; small brown bike, xCONGRESSoftheCROWx,
040. 5/8/00; backdoor; black dice, the rapture (Damian busted open eye resulting in $580 worth of stitches)
041. 6/1/00; backdoor; the ruby dare
04x. - 6/3/00; IPFW - Relay For Life Cancer Benefit - Instrumental Show.
042. 6/16/00; franke; mara kate, god must be on a holiday, skullyard, xCONGRESSoftheCROWx, orbitors, project k
043. 7/11/00; backdoor; the falling, xCONGRESSoftheCROWx.
044. 7/12/00; chicago, fireside; Pop Unknown, the thumbs
045. 7/13/00; normal, IL, house show; the falling
046. 7/15/00; denver, CO 15th ST Tavern.

047. 4/28/01; Louisville, KY, Brycc House
048. 7/04/01; Memorial Park, w/ the vida blue, proudentall, + others
049. 8/17/01; YWCA, w/ the falling, + The Assistant, Walken, and The Radio Raheem
050. 8/26/01; Columbia St West, the Phoenix Fest; w/ all pain aside, cornfed johnson, heavy step, etc.
051. 9/15/01; Flint, MI, flint local 432; w/ all pain aside
052. 9/15/01; Flint, MI, ???; w/ ???
053. 10/06/01; Memorial Park; w/ forstella ford, kid brother collective
054. 11/02/01; Cleveland, OH
055. 11/11/01; Latrobe, PA
056. 12/01/01; Goshen, IN
057. 12/08/01; South Bend, IN
058. 12/11/01; Ft Wayne, IN @ Columbia St West

059. 01/08/02; Ft Wayne, IN @ Columbia St West (Sabbathon)

060. 02/14/02; Ft Wayne, IN @ Crescent house
061. 02/17/02; Ft Wayne, IN @ Sneaky Pete's
062. 02/26/02; Ft Wayne, IN @ Columbia St. West ???
063. 03/01/02; Louisville, KY @ The Brycc House
064. 03/02/02; Bowling Green, KY @ The Nite Lite
065. 03/03/02; Murfreesboro @ The Red Rose
066. 03/05/02; Birmingham @ The Boiler Room w/ Black Cat Music
067. 03/06/02; Atlanta, GA @ C-5 South
068. 03/07/02; gainseville @ common grounds w/ black cat music
069. 03/08/02; Savannah, GA @ The 2424
070. 03/10/02; Orlando, FL @ josh’s house
071. 03/11/02; Gainesville, FL @ Durty Nelly’s
072. 03/13/02; Pensacola @ Van Gogh's
073. 03/14/02; New Orleans @ the dixie tavern
074. 03/16/02; Houston @ Missouri City Park
075. 03/19/02; Albuquerque @ insomnia coffie house
076. 03/20/02; El Paso @ Cantina La Tuya
077. 03/21/02; Tempe @ the funhouse (1810 randall)
078. 03/22/02; Phoenix @ Modified Arts
079. 03/23/02; San Diego @ The Che Cafe w/ dead and gone
080. 03/25/02; Los Angeles @ The Smell w/the chromatics, neon king kong, moving units
081. 03/27/02; Bakersfield @ Munoz Gym
082. 03/29/02; Santa Cruz @ Josh's House;
083. 03/30/02; San Jose @ Joe's House
084. 03/31/02; San Francisco @ Mission Records
085. 04/02/02; Chico
086. 04/04/02; Ashland @ Evo's
087. 04/05/02; Eugene, OR @ the Basement
089. 04/06/02; Salem @ the Triangle
090. 04/07/02; Redmond, OR @ boys and girls club
091. 04/08/02; Portland, OR @ it's a beautiful pizza
092. 04/09/02; Olympia @ the Phoenix house w/ Pleasure Forever, Love Life
093. 04/10/02; Tacoma @ University of Puget Sound
094. 04/12/02; Seattle @ The Paradox Theater
095. 04/13/02; Moscow, Idaho @ mikey's gyros;
096. 04/14/02; Boise @ JD and Friends
097. 04/15/02; Great Falls, MT @ cummunity rec center
098. 04/17/02; Ft Collins @ surfside 7
099. 04/18/02; Denver @ freedom Auto
100. 04/19/02; Colorado Springs @ high life house
101. 04/20/02; Denver @ the Raven
102. 04/21/02; Colorado Springs @ Indy Nation
103. 04/24/02; Lawrence @ The Pirate House
104. 04/25/02; Mankato, MN @ your mom's
105. 04/26/02; Minneapolis @ The House Of Knives
106. 04/29/02; Chicago @ fireside w/ forstella ford, casket lottery
107. 06/07/02; Ft Wayne @ the basement
108. 07/07/02; Greenville, IN @ house

109. 07/24/02; Ft Wayne; the Freedom House
110. 08/01/02; Ft Wayne; Columbia St West
111. 08/05/02; Summersville, SC @ All Books
112. 08/07/02; Richmond, VA @ Saghi's
113. 08/08/02; Raleigh, NC @ Camp Create
114. 08/09/02; Adelphi, MD @ the Dirt Farm
115. 08/10/02; New York City/Long Island @ house w/ Helen of Troy + Swimming with Sharks
116. 08/17/02; Pittsburgh, PA @ Mr Roboto w/ ten grand + more
120. 08/18/02; Columbus, OH @ the legion of doom w/ ten grand, step softly, ghost + more
121. 09/01/02; Bloomington Fest
122. 09/05/02; Indianapolis, IN @ Solidarity Books w/ Funeral Diner + Rats into Robots
123. 09/06/02; Ft Wayne, IN @ Subterranean w/ Funeral Diner + Rats into Robots
124. 09/07/02; Columbus, OH @ Skatepark w/ Funeral Diner + Rats into Robots + ?
125. 09/08/02; Milford, MI @ House w/ Funeral Diner + Funeral for Rosewater + ?
126. 09/17/02; Ft Wayne @ Columbia St West
127. ??/??/02; North Manchester, IN @ the Firehouse
128. 11/04/02, Fort Wayne, IN, Freedom House, w/ Jose Indigo & Taking Pictures
129. 12/26/02; Ft Wayne @ the Freedom House
130. 01/10/03; Cedarville, IN @ the Kitchen
131. 01/11/03; Ft Wayne @ Sneaky Pete's
132. 01/18/03; Bloomington, IN @ the Octopus Palace w/ Stillwell, Murder By Death
133. 01/19/03; Muncie, IN @ ??? w' Murder By Death + Step Softly Ghost
134. 02/28/03; Ft Wayne @ the Freedom House
135. 03/01/03; Ft Wayne @ IPFW
136. 03/08/03; Pittsburgh, PA @ Mr Roboto
137. 03/10/03; Philadelphia, PA @ the Space w/ the Advocate, Fall on Deaf Years + Step Softly, Ghost
138. 03/12/03; Baltimore, MD @ the Charm City Space w/ Light the Fuse + Run, + Step Softly, Ghost
139. 03/14/03; Nashville, TN @ the Muse w/ Oliver's Army + the English System + Step Softly, Ghost
140. 03/15/03; Bowling Green, KY @ the Nite Class w/ Oliver's Army + the English System + Step Softly, Ghost
141. 03/18/03; Ft Wayne @ Columbia St West w/ Step Softly Ghost + Definitely Gary
142. 04/08/03; Ft Wayne @ Columbia St West w/ Step Softly Ghost + Graves of the Endless Fall, Fat Ass, the Jabs, Cal Johnson, John Commorado
143. 05/09/03; Detroit, Mi @ The Trumbullplex w/ Funeral Diner + Takaru + City of Caterpillar, The amputation, The sea the sea, Funeral For Rosewater
144. 05/10/03; Columbus, Oh - @ The Legion Of Doom w/ Funeral Diner + Takaru + Van Johnson
145. 05/11/03; Ft. Wayne, IN @ the Freedom House w/ Funeral Diner + Takaru + common cold
146. 05/12/03; West Chicago, Il - @ Vinyl Underground w/ Funeral Diner + Takaru
147. 05/13/03; Milwaukee, WI @ The Pierce Street House w/ Funeral Diner + Takaru
148. 05/17/03; Murfreesboro, TN @ The Red Rose w/ Black Soul Choir
149. 05/18/03; Long Beach, MS @ The Long Beach Pavilion
150. 05/19/03 Lafayette, LA @ Changes
151. 05/20/03; Baton Rouge, LA @ Craig and Kurt's House
152. 05/21/03; Shreveport, LA @ lil joe's tavern
153. 05/22/03; Houston, TX @ Fat Cat's w/ burned out bright
154. 05/24/03; El Paso, TX E9 Outdoor Stage
155. 05/25/03; Portales, NM @ community center
156. 05/28/03; Bakersfield @ Munoz Gym
157. 05 29/03; Santa Cruz @ UCSC w/ Funeral Diner
158. 05/31/03; San Gregario @ The Saloon w/ Funeral Diner
159. 06/02/03; Bend @ the House of Usher
160. 06/03/03; Portland @ house
161. 06/04/03; Tacoma @ Hell's Kitchen
162. 06/05/03; Seattle @ the Dirty Feet Mansion
163. 06/06/03; Bellingham, WA @ 21st Century Bowl
164. 06/07/03; Spokane @ Cafe Sole w/ Death Kills Time
165. 06/08/03; Twin Falls @ the house of sonic debauchery
166. 06/10/03; Denver @ 15th St Tavern
167. 06/11/03; Colorado Springs @ The High Life House
168. 06/12/03; Omaha @ house
169. 06/14/03; Mankato @ Barn
170. 06/15/03; Minnesota @ Big V's
171. 06/16/03; Milwaukee @ Pierce Street House
172. 06/19/03; Ft Wayne @ the Freedom House w/ Sergio Leone
173. 07/11/03; Indianapolis @ Solidarity Books w/ Light the Fuse + Run, Transistor Transistor, + Mara'akate
174. 07/18/03; N. Manchester @ the Firehouse w/ Chester
175. 07/19/03; Ft Wayne @ the Freedom House w/ End on End + Wilmot Proviso + the Great Redneck Hope + Jared Grabb
176. 08/08/03; Ft Wayne @ the Freedom House
177. 08/09/03; Ft Wayne, IN Art Attack 2 show @the old Sneaky Pete's Building
178. 08/16/03; Louisville, KY @ 624 E. Breckinridge St. w/ Kodan Armada, Ampere, + and then there were none

179. 08/24/03 - Milwaukee, WI @ Endless Nameless
180. 08/25/03 - Minneapolis, MN @ the Babylon w/ Huge Rats Attack
181. 08/26/03 - Mankato, MN @ Lucy's Barn
182. 08/27/03 - Cedar Falls, Iowa - @ the Reverb
183. 08/28/03 - Omaha, NE @ the Power Pad
184. 08/29/03 - Denver, CO @ Garageland
185. 08/30/03 - Colorado Springs, Co @ the High Life House

186. 09/16/03 - Fort Wayne, Indiana @ Columbia St West w/ Step Softly, Ghost
187. 10/04/03 - North Manchester, Indiana @ the Firehouse w/ Pacific UV
188. 12/31/03 - Fort Wayne, Indiana @ 2318 Montclair Ave w/ Middle Class
189. 05/27/04 - North Manchester@ the Firehouse
190. 06/04/04 - Dayton, OH --->Not much More than Music Fest

191. 08/27/08 - Brooklyn, NY @ the Cat House w/ Algernon Cadwallader, Towers, Who Calls So Loud
192. 8/28/08 - Brooklyn, NY @ the Charleston w/ Who Calls So Loud, Portraits of Past
193. 8/29/08 - Brooklyn, NY @ Death By Audio w/ Tropic of Nelson, Ampere, Portraits of Past

Red Heroine shows
11.25.00; 1211 Andrew St w/ the Falling
12.02.00; circvs fest
12.16.00; Lafayette, IN
01.27.01; Ft Wayne, IN; Psi Ote Barn
02.23.01; Ft Wayne, IN; Psi Ote Barn
04.06.01; Ann Arbor, MI; the Pirate House
04.09.01; Ft Wayne, IN; Franke Park Pavillion
04.14.01; Ft Wayne, IN; Psi Ote Barn
06.21.01; Indianapolis, IN; the volcano room w/ the locust, the blow up, and sutek conspiracy
06.28.01; Iowa City, IA; theta beta potata;
06.29.01; Sioux Falls, SD; w/ caligari, spirit of versailles, etc
06.30.01; Chicago, IL;
07.19.01; Ft Wayne, IN;
07.29.01; Ft Wayne, IN; the YWCA (--> convolution records)
x?.?x.01; Ft Wayne, IN; Memorial Park w/ the Beautys


Drowning With Our Anchors shows (that I played) -
fri. april 27th - reno, nevada*
sat. april 28th - provo, utah*
wed. may 2nd - fort wayne, indiana*
thur.may 3rd - columbus, ohio*
fri.may 4th - philadelphia, pennsylvania*
sat. may 5th - new york*
sun. may 6th - new jersey*
mon. may 7th - Dayton, OH
tues. may 8th - indianapolis, indiana*
wed. may 9th - louisville, kentucky*
thur. may 10th - wichita, kansas
fri. may 11th - albuquerque, new mexico*
sat. may 12th - phoenix, arizona
sun. may 13th - Tijuana, Mexico
tues. may 15th - Santa Cruz, california
wed. may 16th - oakland, california